Concerns noted

I am ever grateful to the people of this forum who take the time to care and help in any way possible. 

I am glad that various certified first aid courses which I have undergone over the years have taught me the knowledge to deal with a very messy situation which resulted from a SI recently. Noone other than my GP an psychiatrist know about my current struggles with frequent SI and sometimes I feel so trapped and alone in my situation that I feel like imploding. I am completely socially isolated and live a long way from my family of origin. I have a Dr appointment soon to check that the major damage from recent injuries is going to heal properly. 

 I feel so overwhelmed and trapped but have to keep myself 'sparkling' on the outside for the sake of my kids happiness and because hubby would feel helpless/powerless expectation to 'fix' the situation if he knew what was going on. 

It helps knowing that someone somewhere probably finds relief by knowing there's others of us who share similar feelings and knowing some people care even if there's little that can be done to change things for now.

Still hanging in, change will come eventually 🌻