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18 Sep 2023 01:36 PM
18 Sep 2023 01:36 PM
Hi. Does anyone else have difficulty maintaining friendships? I’ve just lost another friend - possibly two - and am feeling distressed and anxious. Just lately I feel I am masking to present a happy, together person to the world, at the same time wondering if people can see I’m pretending and aren’t liking or including me. Thank you.
18 Sep 2023 02:21 PM
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18 Sep 2023 09:45 PM
18 Sep 2023 09:45 PM
Hi @Sweetpea2020,
Thanks for sharing your experience. I have BPD too, and can relate to the difficulty with friendships that you describe.
I can hear how distressing this is for you, and I’m sorry that you are going through this at the moment. You deserve to feel satisfied with your friendships and to not feel the need to mask around others, and I hope that positive changes in these areas will come your way.
Right now, though, I’d encourage you to seek out ways to support your wellbeing to help get you through this tough period. At times when I have experienced something similar, I found it helpful to journal my thoughts, to engage with online communities, and to watch familiar/comforting content (e.g. YouTube creators that you can feel connected to, my favourite movies or TV shows, etc.), but I know that everyone is different and that you might have some ideas of what would work better for you. I know that it doesn’t always feel fair to be having to put in the work to support ourselves, especially when we might be wishing that others could be there to provide that support instead, but I hope you can see that caring for yourself and your needs is worth it.
Feel free to keep us updated with how things are going for you 🙂
28 Sep 2023 06:01 PM
28 Sep 2023 06:01 PM
Hi, I feel for you. I don’t have BPD but I have NO close friends. It’s just so difficult when you are anxious socially and I worry so much how others will perceive me. I always manage to get my words all jumbled up or put my foot into it by causing offence somehow. I don’t know. I WOULD like to have that friendship component in my life. Life can feel really empty without it.
28 Sep 2023 06:36 PM
28 Sep 2023 06:36 PM
Hey @Former-Member @Sweetpea2020 , I have BPD and I don't have any close friends. However, that's because I like it that way.
I'm interested to hear what a 'friend' means to you? Maybe because I don't tend to use the word 'friend' haphazardly. I'm not one to call everyone I know a 'friend'. It takes a LOT to be my friend.
I'm interested to hear your thoughts.
28 Sep 2023 07:01 PM
28 Sep 2023 07:01 PM
Hey @tyme, got it right this time he he. I have acquaintances but no real close contacts (apart from family) with whom I could disclose my mental illness. I apologise, my words are just not forthcoming tonight 😞
28 Sep 2023 07:05 PM
28 Sep 2023 07:05 PM
No need to apologise at all @Former-Member .
I wonder if you would be interested in joining tonight's Peer Group Chat. This is a live chat. You can sign up for an account here https://client.chatwee.com/popout/5fe12dcb78c130638b151232
You can use your forums username if you want.
Tonight's PGC topic is Move with Motivation. It starts now and will finish my 8:30pm AEST.
29 Sep 2023 04:03 PM - edited 29 Sep 2023 04:03 PM
29 Sep 2023 04:03 PM - edited 29 Sep 2023 04:03 PM
Hi @Former-Member , How are you today? I'm thinking about you and hope you are okay.
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