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[Cuddlebear]

@heartathome  Hello lovely how you going? Support button not working again! Are rhings going ok for you today? 

Im so glad you’ve had a regular psychiatrist for that long. They must be good as you wouldn’t have kept them so long if they were awful. 

My daughter is studying psychology at Uni. She lives quite a distance so it’s hard to see her. We have a really good relationship but I think she’s funding seeing me so unwell really hard. She says she’s very proud of me for going through this. 

Yes friends seem to have just abandoned me since I’ve become unwell. I havnt done anything to anyone just wanting to chat and have some company. The forum people here have been so understanding and caring. I hope I too have been able to help people here. 

[Cuddlebear]

@PeppyPatti  I’m so happy you’re feeling good things lovely. You deserve it. Support button not working again so wanted you to know I’m happy for you. 

[heartathome]

Hello @Cuddlebear It's so annoying when the support button isn't working because no one knows they're being supported unless they reply, which not everyone is up to. I hate to think someone feels unsupported on here! My morning has been gentle. I managed to go downtown to get my meals for the week from the local neighbourhood centre. I'm listening to 80's music on utube at the moment and relaxing. I might go down and listen to a friend play some ukulele later. I've got an appointment with a SANE counsellor this afternoon. She phones me one week and I have the SANE recovery group the following week. Have you done the recovery group yet? I think it's 6 sessions. 🤔

[PeppyPatti]

Dear @Cuddlebear 

 thoughts come up for me when I read a little of your story but also reflections. 
when I first met you I felt like a kindness which was nice in your words. 
yes, this awful story that your dealing with your friends and changing anti depressants ………

but before I lurch into my own stories of friends letting me go - 

I feel - please let me know if I’m wrong but maybe your speaking from your own fear that your daughter can’t see you ? 

I mean if this is your story of your daughter being hesitant at  the same time being flicked by friends when your mental health is:was compromised ?? 

I mean, I’m trying to identify where I go wrong with my mental health and one thing I do is hang upon people on the mobile. I don’t like speaking on the mobile anyway but I have this terrible habit of just saying 

‘ oh I can see your fine or some such 

and say gotta go and hang up.

im writing / speaking from my trauma. All those years of being hypersensitive are being remembered.

Well yesterday a person rang me and I did that to him. I said, “oh, …….. I hope things go well,  I better get going bye and

I hung up, I didn’t 

 think of anything. Then 
my husband said well he’s not going to call you again.
and I listened. 
@Jynx @heartathome @Chasingsunsets @Mustang67 

@TAB 

[heartathome]

I hate talking socially on the phone too, @PeppyPatti @Cuddlebear I can relate to being rejected by 'friends'. I got involved with a cult once that encouraged people to leave family and friends behind. After I left, they would have nothing to do with me. It broke my heart to see my small son not understand why he couldn't play with his friends anymore. While I was in the cult all my 'friends' left me as well. I've never felt so alone! Thankfully, that was many years ago and I have finally returned to a mainstream church that I'm comfortable in!

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 @rav3n @heartathome @DownMoreThanUp @Cuddlebear @TAB @Jynx   @Chasingsunsets @Mustang67 @Dreamy   @PeppyPatti @AlwaysMyself   @Glisten   @RebelliousAngel @Appleblossom   @ENKELI @Shaz51 @StuF  @DownMoreThanUp  

thank you @Mustang67  heres some different ones i hope also remind the good people  to back themselves as quite often we take on guily  from  the ignorant failings of others

[Cuddlebear]

@PeppyPatti   My daughter lives far away. She’s working nights and at school during the day trying to have enough money for rent and food etc. So it is hard for her to come visit and I’m not well enough to do so. She messages. I’m deaf so can’t hear over phone so I use texts 🙂 I do engage and encourage and support her too. I love doing that as she’s so precious to me. 

My friends at least the big majority have really let me down. I don’t ask for much just to message and have a chat about how things are, what they have been upto and a laugh. I think they just want me to support them through rough times but don’t want to do same for me. Through this I’ve learned who my real friends are. 

Trauma does make us feel hypersensitive but I think for me people have really let me down. I don’t ask engage and listen to them and provide that emotional support. 

We are all different and I’ve found you to be such a kind and generous soul. Phone calls are very hard for heaps of people with trauma and other disabilities too so don’t be hard on yourself. You are doing the best you can. 

[Cuddlebear]

@heartathome  Sounds like you are having a great day! I love 80’s music too! Yes I really want the support button to be working so people know I am supporting them. It just started working for me again now. 

I hope the counselling with recovery program goes well. I’ve been doing the other recovery program that doesn’t have the counselling 🙂 It’s really good. 

[Dreamy]

Hello @Cuddlebear my sweet, how are you feeling? It's been really tough for me lately, I had very little sleep last night so I've been resting today, feeling very emotional and fragile. I'm safe and doing my best to keep pushing through. 

[heartathome]

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