@Ru-bee wrote:
That's a tricky situation @MJG017 I can understand the professional ethics of not wanting to continue on when it doesn't appear to be helpful, but it sounds like this came as a bit of a surprise, and as you mentioned, left you feeling like you've lost your professional supports. Are you interested in looking into any different/new supports, or will you give it some time?
It didn't come as much as a surprise because the last couple of sessions the hints began that I should really think about moving on. The session today it was a bit more than a hint and I just didn't feel comfortable arguing the point about whether I found it helpful or not.
I mentioned that I had an appointment with a counselor to talk about all my childhood issues and the struggles they still give me today. She told me that was a good plan and that it would help me deal with my ongoing cancer treatments. I did say I used the sessions with her to talk about my mental struggles with my diagnosis (as it was an oncology psychology service) and this other counselor for my other issues but she insisted it would help with both and that discharging me was the best option for me. My thought was "Well then who can I talk to now about my struggles dealing with my health!?" But I had given up by this time and just agreed to not make anymore appointments. I'll look for more professional help with the cancer side of things but it might not be an affordable option. This current service was provided free for cancer patients at the hospital.
So i'm doing what I can, but just worried about the end of November when I get my next 3-month test and go through all that stress and anxiety again leading up to it. It was quite bad for the week or so leading up to the last test result meeting last week and I don't know how many times I can go through that but who knows, may she's right and working on my self confidence and self esteem will help me deal with the stress of these tests every three months.
