Hey @Jynx @Ru-bee @tyme @Blackcloud @Oaktree @Shaz51,
It was a much-needed conversation on my part. It gave me closure.
We talked about:
- me being the initiator of all the intimacy and messaging and how one-sided the relationship was
- us being incompatible due to both of our avoidance and anxiety - he refused to admit he has a DSM-V-diagnosable Anxiety disorder
- his trauma as a result of the death of his mother
- and how he threw me away when I turned from 'strong' woman to 'weak' woman
- him ghosting me for 8 weeks - he tried to negotiate it down to 6
- knowing when to give up on his dream career, given that he's in his mid-thirties now
He said he had never heard such frustration from me before. I told him that this was because I had never opened up to this degree with him before. He reflected that he could hear that I was 'hurt'. I should've told him that 'hurt' is an understatement, but I didn't want to guilt-trip him further.
I told him: "I don't know if we can even be friends, you treated me so badly".
At the end, he said "Let's keep this conversation going."
I think he won't be surprised if I don't.
What's the point of so anxiously wanting to hear from me, when he never even initiated any messages mid-week while we were together?
@creative_writer @BPDSurvivor @The-red-centaur @Just @PeppyPatti @Healandlove @Glisten @MJG017 @Former-Member @rav3n
