I can’t cope

[Jynx]

You didn't fail @Captain24 you're just still learning that's all - and you actually took a stab at it too, I'm so proud. 

We absolutely care hun. Why do you think I'm out here taking the time to sit with you and explain it all? Be a lot easier to give up on you and say that you aren't trying hard enough. Except you are trying, really hard actually - and we can see that. 

Do me a favour? Sleep on it? If you wake up tomorrow and you still wanna delete your account, you can email us to start that process. But maybe you'll feel differently, I know sleep always helps me think more clearly. Just... be extremely sad if you were gone, and super worried about you losing access to one of your supports. 

[Captain24]

I appreciate you trying. @Jynx 

It just hurts so much. All I’ve done is cry. There is so much more but I can’t say anything. 

I don’t even have my psych to help me with everything. My bad mental heath, my cancer worry, my auntie. I’ve got no one. 

I don’t want to leave but do I want to keep feeling like this? It keeps happening and it hurts so much. I just keep failing as this keeps happening. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 I get it hun - it feels like rejection, so your body is hurting like you've actually been rejected. 

We know there's a lot going on for you, hence why I am hoping you will sleep on it at least. It would suck for you to be down a support, to say the least. 

I hope you can see that you're not a 'failure' when you continue to try - and that if you stick with it, maybe soon enough you'll see growth 😊

[Captain24]

It is rejection @Jynx 

It would probably make it easier for you all if I left. 

I don’t know if I have the time to see growth. Or the ability. 

[Captain24]

Tonight hasn’t helped

 

[Jynx]

I don't do this work because it's easy @Captain24 I do it because I believe in it. 

I believe in you and your ability to grow, even on the days you don't. Today is no different. 

Sleep on it? I'll catch you tomorrow hun, we can chat more then 💜

[Captain24]

It’s ok @Jynx 

You probably won’t remember this conversation tomorrow anyway.

Ill sleep and see what happens from there. 

[Captain24]

If only people would realise but no.. I have to be upbeat and positive. 

Maybe I don’t belong. Maybe it is time to leave.