My Mosaic

[Snowie]

Would be exhausting @Bow Anything to do with moving is.

Can you rest this afternoon?

Pdoc hinted at an admission again. He realises how hard it is with mum at the moment. Is going to look at meds and see if any can be increased/changed. Did suggest increasing ECT. If we lived 5mins from the hospital maybe, but we live just over an hour away. Don't want to have to rely on someone else to do all the driving and waiting around. Also H would have to take another day off work because of me.

[Bow]

Hopefully this time next week we will all be moved and cleaned this house and handed the keys back @Snowie  then to just unpack, but that can take time. 

yeah resting this arvo. It’s that time of the dreaded month and it’s really kicking my butt this month. I was awake half the night with cramps- so I’m tired too. Hasn’t been this bad in a very long time. I think I’m like in perimenopause? Is that what it’s called? I’ll have a few months where it’s hardly noticeable and then it hits me like this month like ‘hello you’re still a woman!’ Sympathies with you @Jynx ! 

its hard when we have responsibilities eh @Snowie  I definitely have times where I could really do with an admission, but it’s just so hard on mum and my daughter. When do you hope to hear some news about respite for your mum? Will that make it easier?

[Jynx]

@Bow I legit have turtle chippies but I had to soft-ban myself from finishing them all in one go this time 🤣 Don't you tempt me!! They're in the back of my pantry for a reason!! 😝

Ugh nooooo you and me both babes!! Uterus has been really gentle with me this month though, thankfully!! Probably the chillest its been for like, a year, with only minimal back pain and cramps, and only like, one random cry for no reason (instead of several and sometimes a bonus meltdown lol)... haha yaaaaay 🙃

Plenty of hot choccies, hot water bottles, and being a hot mess for us both, eh? 

How are you lovely @Snowie ? Ach logistical nightmares to wade through eh? Your poor brain has so many of those to navigate hey 🥺 How's it all sitting with you?

[Snowie]

At least with the unpack you can take it as you please @Bow No rushing to get it all done within a specific time.

Oh that time of month really can knock you around. I find that too. Sometimes I just breeze through it, and then other times it's like my own body working against me.

I'm hoping to hear about respite in the next few days. When I spoke to the lady a while ago, she said about a 1-2 day response. So hoping in the next few days.

I guess it is also about their vacancies too and if they have room for her.

Mum has already told me that if I have to go in again, then she is the one that suffers.

[Snowie]

Hey @Jynx not sitting well, wrote about it on another thread so won't repeat myself.

[AuntGlow]

@Bow oof, okay - that is a lot! I think some rest may be in order this evening - how are you spending your night? ☺️

Hmm, it's okay to not have all the answers. It's really common for other things to come up (that may not be conscious to us yet) when there are big changes or stressors present. It can be a lot for our body and mind to hold, you know? 

Listening to what you need moment to moment will help a lot here, so I think your couch time sounds like perfect self-care. 💛

[Bow]

Not even just one little turtle @Jynx 🐢??!

Oh I’m glad your uterus is being kind to you this month! I am most definitely wishing I had opted for them to take it all out last year this month. 

We booked a removalist today! And booked a van for 2 days! Wrestled with technology  and IT support to get my bonds online account unlocked! It’s all happening!

[Bow]

@AuntGlow Im just gonna spend the night on the couch watching tv. I watch neighbours and home and away. And I’ve gotten into the game show the floor. Then I’ll more than likely go to bed. 

I think I just beat myself up a lot and that then results in alot of negative thoughts and spiralling. Then I’m just left feeling pretty crummy and flat. 

I have my arts and craft group tomorrow. I’m going to try and make the effort to go, but I am not going to be facilitate. I’m not in the head space to do that. I am going to make some more of my mh communication cards though. I thought about them a bit over the weekend and what I need people to know but can’t voice. 

how’s your day been?

[Bow]

Oh all fingers crossed you get some news from them real soon then @Snowie I know it’s hard, but please don’t take her words to heart. 

we had a lovely lady in our church, she was so active, living by herself, driving and then dementia hit her so quick. It’s been so sad to hear about her quick decline and how much this horrible disease has taken from her. Her family have just put her into care cause it’s what is best for her…. And also her family who were caring for her. 

I share this to remind you that these horrible disease take so much from people, it turns them into people that we don’t recognize. And sometimes you gotta think about yourself too

hope it was ok to share that

💜💜💜

[Snowie]

@Bow That is fine to share 

Hopefully will hear back quickly.