Acceptance is hard work

[Jynx]

@MissinTooth any time friend, part of what community is all about - having people who believe in us even when we may not be able to! We got your back hun 😉

Totally! I found that with my own video recordings (we had to record a therapy session with a client 😵) I really only reviewed it once to make sure it all worked, but like once it was done I didn't spend toooo much time in it. I know I can get obsessive over minutiae and I knew if I tried to re-record too many times I'd just get in my own head! 

Hopefully this is similar for you, where you can just record it all and then it's done in one fell swoop!

[MissinTooth]

@Jynx that sounds terrifying.

I'm such a quiet person. I don't talk a lot, and having to actually talk on camera is...terror inducing. I'm aware that my words muddle and I lose them when I'm overwhelmed. So...yeah, videoing myself giving a presentation is so far outside of my comfort zone. 

[Jynx]

@MissinTooth you totally got this - P or HD, it'll all be done soon!! 

Good luck 😊💪

[MissinTooth]

@Jynx or @AuntGlow my final assignment for the Trauma Informed Care unit is done and I've just submitted it. 

Feeling super anxious and I have to go out for dinner tonight with family for my brother's birthday, which was yesterday. 

I was wondering if either of you have time to sit with me through a grounding activity? 

@tyme tagging you here too, so I'm not making a separate post, but I broke my Smiling Minds streak last night. I'm sorry. So, trying again...I guess. 

[AuntGlow]

Good afternoon @MissinTooth, 

It sounds like things have felt quite heavy and foggy over the weekend - how are you feeling today? 💛

Also, I know you're feeling lost regarding your future... I think we all go through phases like this, and it's so important to acknowledge how far you've come in these moments. I am learning that our desires have to feel 'safe' in our body before we can actually obtain or follow through with them. And that can feel really tough sometimes... I think one small action each day that aligns you with that part of yourself who has these goals could help to build that muscle? This doesn't need to happen right now, this month, or even this year. But I just wanted to share that with you, to remind you that achieving our goals really is a process that takes time, and fear is allowed to be there as you do.

And if someone to believe in you is what you need most, then know that you always have us. 🥰

[AuntGlow]

Oh my gosh, how do you feel about finishing your last assignment? That must be such a huge sigh of relief. 🤩 @MissinTooth 

Of course I can sit with you. What grounding exercise would work? Do you want to go through the 5 senses? 💛

[MissinTooth]

@AuntGlow it is a relief but I don't know how I feel because as soon as I hit that submit button, I was flooded with anxiety. 

Five senses would be good please, if you have the time? 

[AuntGlow]

Yes, of course! @MissinTooth I thought I would post a picture for directions this time, because it is pretty. ✨

[MissinTooth]

It is pretty @AuntGlow 

5 things I see...

* My blue blanket draped over the arm of my lounge.

* Luna asleep on the floor next to her bed (silly girl)

* My blue eeyore slippers on my feet.

* The orange flame of the woodheater behind me. 

* the side of my coffee table  dark wood, with black legs. 

[MissinTooth]

@AuntGlow 

4 things I feel....

* My heart beating hard in my chest

* The grey flecked carpet on my bare ankles

* The soft and fluffy insides of my slippers

* The warmth of the fire on my lower back.