31-10-2025 09:01 PM
31-10-2025 09:01 PM
TW: ritual abuse
31-10-2025 09:44 PM
31-10-2025 09:44 PM
@avant-garde sometimes we need to embrace the dark so we can remember how we found our way out of it, so we might re-embrace the light with a deeper gratitude or renewed perspective. It's okay to reach out for a reassuring gesture to help us when we're really deep in it tho 💜 And also wanna acknowledge how isolating it is when the majority around us are celebrating the very thing that is causing us pain. Like a burning sting we must grin through.
Poetry is one of my most powerful ways of expressing the enormity of my feelings. I think it also helps me to really feel them, and move through them so that they move on and out of my body. I hope the words flow freely for you, and the emotions with them.
31-10-2025 09:48 PM
31-10-2025 09:48 PM
Then the flashbacks knock us for six in the midst of writing...
01-11-2025 03:57 PM
01-11-2025 03:57 PM
@avant-garde hello hun, how are you travelling today?
01-11-2025 04:00 PM
01-11-2025 04:00 PM
My body has all this feeling that is threatening to overwhelm and I'm scared of what memories the feeling holds
01-11-2025 05:09 PM
01-11-2025 05:09 PM
@ENKELI...
You believe in this stuff when no one in my physical life does, but I trust you to be gentle in your response...
I think... no... I know it was the enemy spiritually attacking me yesterday and today... the memories were of that nature... and then I prayed like I haven't in a long time and it's gotten easier
01-11-2025 05:23 PM
01-11-2025 05:23 PM
@avant-garde totally understandable for it to be a terrifying prospect... do you feel safe enough to feel your feelings, or are you needing to disengage from them?
01-11-2025 05:26 PM
01-11-2025 05:26 PM
I think the memories have settled into their vials now to deal with the emotions associated with them... I just don't like being alone when dealing with them...
01-11-2025 06:28 PM
01-11-2025 06:28 PM
@avant-garde it is hard, hey. Living alone has had many benefits for me - having to deal with my meltdowns and intense emotions alone has not been one of them.
May only be virtual, but I send hugs 😊
(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡
01-11-2025 06:38 PM
01-11-2025 06:38 PM
It was horrible... it was torturous and wrong and I don't understand! I don't understand! How could he! How could he!
TW: strong language, ritual abuse
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