Not Good Enough

[AuntGlow]

Of course we do @Till23 💕

Travel is stressful! So please know that I completely get how you feel. 

Quick story: I used to be absolutely terrified of flying. OCD brain wouldn't allow it, so I put off going to Europe for SO long. I also struggle with organisation and things being out of my control, so I can quickly become dysregulated when I feel like everything is too much. My best friend came over 5 hours before my flight and found me crying with a bunch of clothes all over the floor and no plan. I was so lucky to have her support, but even so, everything in me wanted to back out because I was stepping so deeply out of my comfort zone.

Once I got on the plane and made it to London, I was so happy I didn't back out! 

There were many things that threw me into a flurry throughout the trip (I did a tour that was fast-paced, and I felt very alone with people I couldn't connect with.) However, there were beautiful moments of self-reflection, adventure, and growth along the way - I finally saw countries of my dreams, went to music events I have wanted to since I was 14, and came home with stories I never thought I would. I look back at that time and feel so proud that I challenged myself - and I KNOW you will too. Just like @MissinTooth said - you will rewire neural pathways, and it will be so incredibly expansive.

(Just wanted to get this in quickly before you go! GO THRIVE QUEEN!! 🥳💛)

[Till23]

Thanks @AuntGlow I know you won't read this until tomorrow which will be after I have left. But thanks very much for your kind words and also for sharing a bit of your experiences of travelling.

I don't have that person who is going to come over and help me pack. I also have to get to Sydney first to fly out.

I'm not worried about flying I have a much, much higher risk of death driving to the airport than I do on the plane.

Equally when I did the Aussie thing of going and living in London, even though there was some hard times, sleeping in some interesting places like train stations etc, only eating on a day that I worked etc Overall I had the best time, seeing and experiencing some wonderful things, historical things, like fall of Berlin wall, I went to Russia as USSR was self destructing, and came back with heaps of great stories. There were no mobile phones or internet back then!

I can't believe how courageous I was. I will have to try and channel that person.

And Yes, I have to try and thrive, not just survive.

[Till23]

Thanks to everyone who has chatted to, and supported me over the last few months

I probably won't remember to name you all @tyme @AuntGlow @Jynx @rav3n @Ru-bee @RiverSeal @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @MJG017 @Dreamy @MissinTooth @Dimity @ArraDreaming @Oaktree and all the others thank you.

I am off on a trip now. I'm not 100% sure if I'll be back so just saying thanks

[Oaktree]

@Till23 

I have loved getting to know you. Stay safe!

[Dreamy]

@Till23 you are more than deserving of all the support you have received. And I'm so thankful for the support you have given me ♥️.

I hope you enjoy your trip.

I really hope we will see you back here but if not I truly wish you the best for whatever your future holds ♥️

Sending you hugs, you are amazing never forget that ♥️

[AuntGlow]

We all appreciate you so much! @Till23 When you can, think of the younger you that was immensely courageous and adventurous, and know that she still exists - picture her cheering you on and know that you have absolutely got this. 

We hope to talk to you again soon. 

Bon Voyage. 💛💛💛

[Dimity]

Calm sea and prosperous voyage are my wishes for you @Till23 short and/or long term https://youtu.be/7VUz-PZx528?feature=shared

[Shaz51]

Hugs my awesome sister ❤️ @Till23 , thinking of you lots ❤️ 

[MissinTooth]

@Till23 I'm no good at goodbyes because they make me emotional and awkward...

Like right now...

Safe travels. 

[rav3n]

safe travels! @Till23 it's always a delight seeing you around the forums and hearing your thoughts. you will absolutely be missed. i do hope to see you again but if we don't, sending you lots of love 💗