Hello @Nezumidoshi
I lived alone for many years and sometimes the loneliness used to grip me. I found strategies for dealing with it but I can agree it can feel quite raw. Being mentally ill we can internalise the feeling that we are unwanted by others by the prevailing discrimination we experience in society and then it reinforces the fact that we are destined to be alone by the very act that we believe it - a prophesy come true!
You sound like you have been treading water lately but I imagine you have been a very strong person to conceal your vulnerabilities and show a brave face so folks wouldn't abandon you. I would encourage you to get in touch with your innermost workings and start to unravel these false doctrines that have become your sense of self. Its simply not true that you are unworthy. Having to face mental illness alone is just not fair. I bet you are a deeply loving and interesting person with an immense amount of personal resources that have got you this far.
For me at least I got into affirmations to change my inner world. Our subconscious is like a sponge and it just absorbs all kinds of messages from our early caregivers, authority and people around us. By changing my subconscious I was able to invite more possibilities into my life. I also tended to my life to cultivate a greater sense of inner and outer prosperity to attract the people I wanted.
I worked with my chakra system to heal my chakras as we tend to develop relationship interaction problems through unregulated energy systems in our bodies. The heart can ache when it is unbalanced and has been affected by traumas and negative life experiences. By balancing and clearing my chakras I no longer experienced relationship issues with people. Loneliness comes from the heart and its a signal that something isn't right. By healing this energy center you can say goodbye to the pangs of loneliness. I used to follow a psychotherapist who made chakras her life work because psychotherapy is just so limited. She says that the problems we face with others are due to chakra issues and she has written at length about how to resolve this.
Currently things are very difficult in the world and I agree it can feel like we are drowning. I once had a facebook friend who was a geophysicist and used to mine precious minerals/crystals. She recognised earlier in the piece that crystals have metaphysical properties as vessels of light! This was after she was given a huge piece of moldavite given to her to take home by her lecturer at university and having a kundalini experience after it was placed under her desk .
Ever since that day her life was changed forever and she welcomed in the healing vibrational power of crystals into her life. Crystals can light your path and they have also worked for me. I am currently using green jasper. Its known as a supreme nurturer and can stop you from feeling as if you are sinking. Look up the metaphysical properties of green jasper. It offers a solid foundation and is a wonderful talisman. If you are interested you got to know how to cleanse and charge them up properly or they won't work. If my preparations have not been thorough I have encountered this aforesaid problem and the crystals won't deliver their magic.
Thank-you for reaching out to SANE. I hope you enjoy your stay here and make ample use of the services. I hope my reply gives you some sense of encouragement and that you can start implementing an action plan to get your life from A to B
Good luck! ❤️
