grief

@emilykoala hope you're doing okay that does sound like such a painful time, and grief is something that can feel so isolating. I feel like fighting it or trying to "move on" isn't always the best policy. 

I am confused why your post is moderated as you stated nothing controversial.

Thank u for being here.

thank you for being so kind; it’s refreshing to have someone talk the way you do.

Hi @emilykoala and welcome to the forums. I hope you find supportive people here.

My mum died last year and I am still trying to find my way. She left some money and I have just been on a trip to Europe. I had a good time but it was often really hard as I kept thinking how much mum would have enjoyed it.

There’s no easy answers, some days are harder than others but I keep waking up and trying.

Sending lots of love ❤️ 

Hi, I'm really struggling with grief at the moment too. The partner of a good friend of mine, was involved in a fatal motorcycle crash. This was on the 24th April and I'm still crying every day, not eating much and I keep going over the accident in my head. It's like I became obsessed with it. 

Hi @Wita-K I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I'm hearing that this is still very fresh grief and that it's affecting you deeply. It can be very to reach out when in the midst of grief and it shows a lot of strength from both you and @emilykoala to be able to share here. I hope that being here can offer some small comfort in this very hard time

Thank you. Grief is such an awful heavy feeling. I've never felt like this before, even when I lost my parents. I'm just so devastated for my friend, this was a second chance for both of them having been married before and now with adult children. My friend's partner, parents, and others thanked her for putting a smile back on his face. I can't stop crying. 

@Wita-K i also relived my relationship breakdown again and again - i was left suddenly - as in i came home one evening and he wasn't there. and i dont know why. and never will.

At the same time my therapist chucked me out of his care, while I was sturggling with the relationship breakdown, i had become unwell and was s-hing and just going through a really bad relapse in my mental health, and rather tahn work with me on it - the therapist took offence, and got rid of me.

I felt like everything fell apart on that one day, and i kept reliving it again and again

the worst for me was when ppl kept saying i eneded to "close the chapter" or "move on"

I'm sorry for ur friend, life can be so unfair