S.H Relapse

[Alex9]

TW. 

I haven't been on here for a while, so hey guys!

I was doing very well on the no self harm front, I think it was 8 or 9 months. However I have now relapsed.

I tried to fight it, I left the house, called lifeline was on hold for a while but I gave up. 

I am not proud of it, I was triggered because I had a minor disagreement with my housemate (I was in the wrong, I apologised) but honestly I have been thinking about it for weeks and I just relented to the intrusive thoughts.

I am not a danger to myself, it sounds so gross but I have a methodical approach to S.H, it's not life threatening and it doesn't leave lasting scars. 

anyway just wanted to share my disappointment, I can't say this to anyone in my real life. 

[rav3n]

i can hear how hard this must've been for you but please know that relapsing doesn't take away all your progress - you are only human, and that means there's going to be some ups and downs - and that's okay. i'm so glad to hear you're safe. it must've taken a lot of strength to try reach out as well as share your story here @Alex9 we're here for you 💙