I am on a lifeboat

[Judymay]

I am in a lifeboat lost at sea, I've used all the emergency supplies, done the sos call, and yet I am here still and realising that maybe there's nothing more to do

Maybe all that's left is to savour the essentials at hand and use them scarcely so they last in hopes that maybe I'll see something on the horizon that is new

Maybe another boat, or land, or maybe a helicopter, to be honest, any lifeline at this point I would gladly take in hopes to find help, and maybe get some relief

All I know is the longer I paddle this boat and all I see is vast open ended spaces with no help in sight my my heart starts to wander and my energy depletes

When do I stop paddling and just rest my weary mind and body, and how do I even do that when I am stranded and freedom seems so out of my reach?

I am unsure how to stop my body from worrying and being in distress, but yet I also wander if my mind is not stopping, is this its way of showing me that hope it still keeps

I am in a lifeboat and stranded out in a sea that is large and I seem so small that no one seems to find me and I am watching larger objects just pass me by

So please if you see me in my little lifeboat just purely trying to stay afloat, give me a hand or a throw me a lifeline, I am trying my best everyday to keep the fight

[Gremlin24]

@Judymay i hear you and I'm here for you. Keep fighting, keep hold of that tiny bit of hope no matter how small it is. 

You are not alone, we are here with you ❤️ 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @Judymay 

Hearing how hard it is to stay afloat right now, but it's remarkable that even during this time you're able to continue reaching out here.

I hope that you're able to feel the support of the forums and that it helps to keep you floating along

[MissDiagnosis]

Good sing to listen to is Leaky Boat by the Tooth faeries. That might cheer you up. https://youtu.be/ODQYQs_P5q4?si=9EMNmD_3HNpKBigG

[MissDiagnosis]

https://youtu.be/ODQYQs_P5q4?si=9EMNmD_3HNpKBigG

[Till23]

@Judymay 

I reckon there are a lot of people also out there on the sea in their lifeboats.

I reckon there are people on these forums.

I reckon you’ve seen or heard then from afar.

So you know you are not alone, you’ve seen some of them take a towline from someone on the forums and they are assisted on their way to land by the other lifeboats.

Even though it’s dark on the open sea at night, you know the sun will rise again in the morning and you might be able to see some opportunities, some other people, in the light there is hope.

Is there something in particular that’s caused you to be in a lifeboat at sea?

[Judymay]

Hello @Till23 

thank you, yes sadly I think too many can relate and I'm learning more as I keep going, too many have this experience. 

I am currently living in an environment I never wanted and now faced with neglect and emotional trauma but cannot access support to leave as no dv services can accomodate my disabilities so despite the significant challenges I've been told I have to wait for ndis which is just defeating in itself. 

[Judymay]

@MissDiagnosis @Haha thanks