Hi @eth
It was ok 😊
I slept enough to function today, and I don't consider the time awake wasted. Sometimes that's when I get my headspace to myself.
Playing with the Drawing Desk app is a creativity, even if it's not "real art". While I have artistic ability there all the time - I can pick up a pencil or paint and produce something - I am not always in the frame of mind to engage with it.
i used to worry about that, that I wasn't practicing this gift enough, and maybe that was lack of appreciation for it. I changed my mind when I realised the first time I did an oil painting after a long absence from it that my ability is developing regardless of whether I am practicing it or not. It was one of those eureka moments when I realised that the gift is in my mind, not may hands as such, and my mind is practicing that craft all the time. It is turning over images, light effects, colours, shapes, forms, perspectives, etc without me even being conscious of it.
It's a special gift, but gifts are meant to be shared with others as much as they benefit you too.
Like tears tho, (conversation happening at the mo with @BlueBay over in her "having a bad morning" thread) not everyone wants to share in it with you. It's wise to respect that and step back from those who don't.
