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Thank you for your words @AlwaysMyself.

 

Yes not sleeping well completely sets off the darkness again. Thank you for reminding me of that. Today I felt like I couldnt cope with anything and that all the things I had to engage with I could not handle - remember just a moment.

 

Do you work full-time? What is your current situation with addressing your MH issues with them, if I have understood that correctly? You dont have to answer if you dont want to.

 

@Cuddlebear I was going to ask do you receive any funding from the government for some support services but @AlwaysMyself just mentioned something? I was thinking maybe someone for companionship would be nice

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@Kashmina I work part-time; I can't do fulltime work or I get too exhausted and depressed.  I think I need to take some extended time off work in order to recovery from long-term burnout and worsening MH over the past 2 years. It's been a long time (over 10 years) since my MH was this bad, and it has not been improving even though I have been "doing all the right things" including starting to see a counsellor regularly again. My biggest "problem" with my MH (I think) is that I do not find enjoyment/pleasure in anything (even though I do things regularly still) and have no memory of what 'happiness' or 'joy' is because I have been depressed since before I was a teenager. Living is a chore I do for others' sake - and that needs to change; I need something more.

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Morning @AlwaysMyself

 

Thank you for sharing 😊

 

This is exactly me, so I completely understand! The burnout I experienced about 4 years ago has left me depleted in a way I can not even describe (except you have done it well). Every time I try to engage with the work area again it wears me out (and unfortunately most places are very challenging to work in now) and the burnout continues. I too am able to engage in life but that does not seem to shift how fatigued I am, how anxious I am and how any form of stress will cripple me. For some reason I can not move past this at this stage. I recently went back to my psych who has mentioned and always has - this type of burnout is not something you mess with and needs to be taken seriously so I must listen to what my body and brain are telling me. I have but its hard to navigate when you also have many other pressures in life.

 

In regards to feeling the disconnection with enjoyment/pleasure etc - she did discuss this and the long term effects of depression (I cant remember the name)

 

Had a very stressful day yesterday which brought on a lot of anxiety so I am going to try to take it easy today. I hope you have a good day too

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@Kashmina Would be interested to know any ideas/tips of what has helped for you (even if only sometimes) with your long-term burnout and depression.  I suspect my neural network has gone dormant in certain areas of my brain re: pleasure/enjoyment/positive-feeling; no evidence as have not done an fMRI, but it makes sense in terms of how neural networks that aren't used degrade over time. Or perhaps even did not form fully as a child??

 

I hope today has gotten better for you this afternoon than it was in the morning.

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@Kashmina  Hello my friend. How are you? Are you feeling any better lovely? 

I have 9 hours a week of support worker from government. It’s not much. 😞 I have them 3 hours each shift. They are really nice but not the same as having a caring friend or family. 

 

Im sadly still feeling terrible. Just getting through hour by hour. It’s hard holding on like this day after day. 

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@AlwaysMyself  Hello beautiful friend. How are you? 

Yes I have a part foot amputation. 😞 It was awful the way he treated me wasn’t it. People can be so mean and he was from the CATT team doing a check in. I don’t see them anymore after that I felt too uncomfortable 😞 

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Hello @AlwaysMyself sorry about the late reply.

 

That is a tricky question re ideas/tips with burnout. In the beginning I could do almost nothing. Once it set in, I would get up in the morning and shower with the intention to do some things (I was studying p/t atm), I would venture to the lounge to open my laptop and it was there I stayed starring into the 'ether' for the rest of the day. This is when many other very challenging symptoms kicked in. I did a couple of things there. I went back to basics. I could not cook myself anything, I had no energy or interest in it. I was lucky that my son was in the house and he cooked my dinner for me every night (I was eating at least on nutritious meal a day) for six months. I was incredibly lucky. I also knew subconsciously (it was not conscious) to go for a walk, even around the block every morning and every evening. Of course there were days when I may not have done this but for about 5 days a week I did. It may sound strange for someone who is in such a state to be able to even achieve this but I have known about MH issues for most of my life and although I did not really understand what was going on with me I knew about the basic things that could help someone with symptoms such as what I was experiencing. Dont get me wrong, this was not a straight forward process. Some days I made it to end of the driveway and I had to come back. Sometimes I could walk that bit more. It took about 2 months for my diarrheah to stop everyday  and about 6 months before I felt a slight shift in the array of symptoms I had. Things were such a blur through those times, I can just remember how I feel and it was not good.

 

And the journey of this has been continuing since. Every stage seems to be different and what has worked before doesnt seem to be working now.

 

My psych has stressed the importance of getting back to basics again even though she knows the lack of pleasure I feel with much of what I do. A big one for her is what I eat and getting exercise, even if it is in short bursts.

 

Completely understand about certain areas of your brain degrading with lack of use. I feel that too with the anxiety I produce. It feels like my brain has been so programmed to respond to situations with a fight or flight response, it doesnt know how anymore to respond to how the actual situation is.

 

I will think about other things I have tried to shift how I am still feeling but like you, I have tried various strategies that I know should give me some relief, and yes at times it does but not enough for me to really progress.

 

Hope you are having a nice Sunday

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Hello lovelies - just checking in. 🫶

@Appleblossom - showing up for yourself is absolutely enough. How was your session with your psychiatrist? And always looking forward to your music updates! 

@Dimity - I know things have been overwhelming this week, so I am curious to know if you were able to slow down at all over the weekend?

@Kashmina oh wow! I am so glad you decided to do what is right for you. What prompted the decision to leave study? SO cool that you volunteer at a theatre. What do you enjoy about it?

@DownMoreThanUp I know this has been a big week for you too - how are things at home? 

@Cuddlebear I can see you have lots of beautiful support here. It sounds like these medication changes have been so, so tough... I am glad you are letting your GP know when things aren't sitting right. Do you feel they are open to collaboration with you? 

 

Also, I can see a few folks here are connecting over medication changes and decisions - know that it is absolutely okay to draw upon your own lived experience. Of course, we make moderation decisions to avoid explicit/directive advice, as we always want to ensure that comes from a medical professional. However, sharing your lived experience to support others is invaluable, and encouraging your forum friends' sense of self-agency/empowerment is such an important part of peer support. So, thank you for being here for one another. 🫶 @Appleblossom @Kashmina @AlwaysMyself @Captain24 @Cuddlebear