Functioning with ADHD

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow SA wasn’t from anyone who meant anything to me, so in a sense I am sort of lucky. However, not having any support from people I loved and trusted was hard. Not being believed by my own mum at the time was hard. She eventually accepted, but her initial response was disbelief. I haven’t told her everything, because I don’t have it in me to be let down.

It’s less present when im in a better place emotionally, tonight has been rough. Maybe I’ve cracked or maybe it’s just rough. Something feels off tonight. Maybe I need sleep, tomorrow is another day

[tyme]

That sounds so tough @creative_writer in that you weren't believed or supported by those closest to you @creative_writer . I really hope you find a way through this as I can see that it is so unfair that you should be defined by it or oppressed by it.

I hope things improve for you by tomorrow.

Take care.

[creative_writer]

@tyme I’m certainly calmer than I was last night. I am a bit achy, kind of had to stop supplements before my blood test on Friday (to ensure accurate results). My migraine supplements take the edge off. Not sure if my body is absorbing what it needs from food alone. It could also be withdrawal from low amount of herb added in to reduce migraine pain.

It was hard not getting that support, it’s a risk factor for developing ptsd. At least I’m able to lean into supports to a certain extent now, but I do feel like I need to hold off discussing details. Maybe everyone is different, but I feel talking about details just feeds the rumination

[creative_writer]

I know it’s only for three days, but my body doesn’t feel so good, feeling faint right now. I just have a bit longer till I can go back on my supplements. I don’t have much planned for the next three days and I can take it easy

[creative_writer]

Anyone know how to cope with withdrawal and not let it affect your mental health too much? Feeling the depression kicking in, feeling intense heaviness in my chest (heaviness is a trigger for anxiety in itself as it’s a reminder a trauma)

[rav3n]

glad to hear the Lifeline shift went well! @creative_writer 

withdrawals can be challenging, hope you're staying kind to yourself 💗

[creative_writer]

@rav3n withdrawal are hard, at least it’s for a short period of time, I feel super sick. I’m going to try to take a shower in a bit. I need to wash away this heaviness (though I’m not sure if I can)

[creative_writer]

I wasn’t able to wash away the heaviness, but I’m cleaner

[rav3n]

@creative_writer do you find yourself feeling hyper-aware of your body sensations/changes often?

what else helps relieve that feeling of heaviness for you?

[creative_writer]

@rav3n I’m regularly hyper-aware. It’s either hyperaware or disconnected, I haven’t found that middle ground yet, still need to find it. I don’t know if the heaviness is truly a withdrawal or just a trauma response. I know I need to learn to sit with discomfort, it’s just hard if it is happening all the time. Might need to touch base with psych. Distraction has been my go to, but it gets a bit exhausting after some time. The thing about distraction is, it’s good in moderation but not so good but not healthy to escape all the time. Intrusive thoughts will eventually start popping up even during those distraction periods. I find grounding myself can help, sensory toys, and breathing. Maybe flashbacks aren’t something that can be controlled