I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Thanks @Snowie.

Im focusing on my back pain to try and eliminate the bad thoughts going on in my head 

[Captain24]

I’m so alone. What is wrong with me? 

[Captain24]

I deserve to be alone. I’m a horrible person. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 , How are you? How's your back?

[tyme]

Ooooo @Captain24 - I've just read your previous post. What's happening tonight that makes you think this way?

[Captain24]

Hi @tyme 

How are you? 

[tyme]

I'm in thinking mode tonight. I have a lot of things on my mind @Captain24 . Nothing either good or bad. Just things I have to do, that's all.

My 'grumps' came out tonight at my sister. I think I was annoyed because I was trying to get a sim card of hers to connect to 4G. I couldn't do it without her verification code on her phone/email... then she was busy seeing to 3 kids. I was trying to get the code. One kid wanted to go to the toilet (the 2 year old needs help), then the older kid was sick, and the middle one wanted food. It was chaos in their house.

In the end, I didn't get it sorted. I just walked away and left....

I'm so glad I live alone lol.....

[Captain24]

Anything you want to get of your chest @tyme ?

I find it so frustrating when they want your help but won’t help you! My mum does it all the time and she only has a dog not 3 little kids! 

[tyme]

Nah, it's all good. I just have to learn to walk away @Captain24 

We are just very different. I like to clean things as I go e.g. dishes, benches etc. But for my sister, she makes a huge mess, then cleans e.g. all the dishes in the sink then put them in the dishwasher in the evening.... I can't handle all those dirty dishes in the sink

I used to clean for her as they made mess, but then she said I was a control freak... so I just leave her now...it's not my house anyway.

Oh well. We are all different.

[Captain24]

That made me smile @tyme. Im just like your sister! 

I hope you have a good night. I’m going to have a shower and try and get this strapping tape off my back. Ready to be reapplied tomorrow