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[Snowie]

Hi @NatureLover 

Not much sleep last night. Just lots on my mind, couldn't shut it down.

How are you?

@creative_writer haven't heard from you for a few days. How are you going?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie sorry didn’t mean to vanish. I just had a lot on my mind lately. I hope you are able to rest up today 💖🫂

[Snowie]

No need to be sorry @creative_writer 

Just wanted to make sure you were ok.

How is your day going?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I didn’t have a good start to the day, too much shit I can’t explain.

How is your day going?

[Snowie]

Sorry to hear that @creative_writer 

Am around if you need to chat about anything.

Day is ok. Got S to school and got to chemist. Besides that, the couch has been my friend.

Have you got any plans for today?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I don't really have words today to describe the emotions, I just feel agitated and depressed, it's a bad combination because it encourages unhelpful urges, I'm safe.

Nothing wrong with a couch day, particularly when you haven't had a good night of sleep.

I don't have as much planned, but really should get on with uni, I've been struggling so much with getting things done. Do you have plans?

[Snowie]

I'm sorry you are going through all that at the moment @creative_writer 

I know things haven't been good recently.

Hope you can get some uni work done. At least it might help distract you a bit.

Nothing planned for the rest of the day. 

[creative_writer]

@Snowie it's a big red flag when SI thoughts escalate. I may be safe right now, but it's hard having to keep fighting these urges. I am not getting anything done rn for uni, can't seem to take my mind off things with these loud thoughts.

Maybe take it minute by minute. I hope you are able to fill your day in lots of self care ❤️

[Snowie]

I'm sorry things are at that point @creative_writer I know how hard it is to continuously fight. It can become so tiring and overwhelming. It can consume us. Is there something nice you can do for yourself?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie I’m having lunch now, I’ll try to study again in a bit. Don’t have much appetite, but not eating will make things worse.

Are you doing much on the couch today? Like watching tv?