nothing changes

[Shaz51]

sending you hugs my friend @Former-Member, how are you today

Hello @Appleblossom, @Slybaby, @eth, @Jacques, @Former-Member,

Oh my online sister @Appleblossom xx

Dont let them beat you.  If you cant manage it today ... there IS always tomorrow.  Dont worry if you put off things for a while.  Too many of us are perfectionists and get our knickers in a knot.  You can do it girl, though I know you are in a rotten situation. You can prevail.-- these are great words

well everyone ,, all day rmy hubby had the biggest anxiety attack yesterday

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Shaz51 - i have managed today, i made it through work.. feeling very physically cruddy with a virus or something. im sorry your hubby is having those anxiety attacks, have you managed to get an earlier appt or still waiting for Friday? hugs to you both
lj

[MoonGal]

@Former-Member - it must be International Vaccum Failure year. Mine died last week too.

So sorry to hear everything is packing up, I always find these things come in waves, and if I was superstitious (which I am not) I would wonder how I could have a broken laptop, two broken solid state back up drives, a broken bottle of olive oil, a broken mug, a broken glass and a broken vaccum cleaner all in the space of a week. It all feels very unravelling. The wobblier I get the wobblier everything around me gets, it seems.

Hope your little guy's gastro upset has resolved and he find his even keel again soon. You sound exhausted. The court stuff is a huge impost and must feel impossible - damned if you do seek help - damned if you don't.

I hope you find your footing again very soon. One day at a time Lisa Jane. 

[Former-Member]

Hi @MoonGal

Thanks so much for your post, My lil boy is better, he's a lot brighter, but still a bit drained and tired.. but being 5... has no notion of the idea of slowing down for a few days and so over does it and gets super cranky.. but glad its the weekend and having some quiet time here and there. 

I'm struggling with what is the point of everything... what is the purpose of my life... it feels like its just to endure pain.. im tired of being told that my strength is being resilient through so much crappy stuff.. i dont want to have to be resilent and its so pointless.. the fact that i have just continued tobreathe through being stomped on over and over really isnt a strength its just a fact of life that the body keeps going... my mind certainly hasnt come through unscathed... 

yesterday i found out a person that i dont know very well through my work (but not employed by work at all) has been accused of some nasty things.. i hope its not true but feeling like the world is just so full of evil stuff and i just wish i could not be a part of it.

lj

[Jacques]

sending you hugs and well wishes @Former-Member, i have been where you are now, i suppose i still am, i hope you find your answer to your questions soon.

take care my friend

Jacques

[eth]

Thinking of you @Former-Member sending you strength.  One day at a time.