ugh not again no

[mrkotter]

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@Teej wrote:
What kind of things @Former-Member Society values a lot of crap things in my opinion. It doesn't make society right. It's what you value that is important. Sending hugs💜

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+1 also more hugs:

 

[Former-Member]

Hi @Former-Member, just read your post where outpatients kept you waiting hours in a triggering environment. I can relate, you really hate being there anyway and trying to move fwd but they're not making it easy. I've actually heard nurses instructing each other to give us a hard time so we don't come back. Bumsteads!!! And you vomited from the stress 😳

I'm wondering if you could maybe take a support person with you, a friend, so you don't feel so alone. And distractions, things to do while you wait, and some relaxation exercises, or even a sedative?. They just don't understand, we have to speak up, to the right people, preferably with an advocate by your side. Just a couple of ideas. You can do this.

Just had a funny idea (if ya up to humour), take some helium balloons, fold up table, munchies & drinks & invite a bunch of friends to party while you wait. Quietly. They'll push you through quick then, maybe.

No, you can come through this, i have 30yr old scars i still hide from people. Even in day surgery last week i apologised to the anesthetist for the scars as he was struggling to find a vein. But usually, if they're rude enough to ask, i tell them i fell on a milk bottle or had a fight with a lawnmower or Road accident. The hardest part is forgiving myself, when they see I'm at ease about it - they are.

Sorry, probably saying too much. Tell me how you really feel Briar

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member, i think i get that you don't value things in your life that others do. That's what depression does to our thinking. Its hard. Mindfulness has helped me with this - really noticing the little things and letting the good stuff in. You're worth it. Get through tonight, ring all the helplines, get RSI typing to us, whatever it takes to get through, tomorrow's a new day.

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member I was at that very low point only a few days ago. On the verge of SH where maybe I didn't come back from. My SH is different to yours but SH still. At the very last moment after seeking help I changed my mind. Right now it feels like the right decision not to SH. I'm not over it. Thoughts still constantly come and go. But the wave passes and today I found the smallest things to make me laugh. It's not a life by societies standards but it's enough for now. I know you feel very low but please reach out to find the thing that helps this wave of thoughts and feelings pass. i care and really hope you find the help you need. It's you that is important. You are worth it. 💜💜💜

[Former-Member]

Wishing you all the best for a restful sleep @Former-Member. I'm glad you responded. 💜 Thinking of you 💜

[Former-Member]

Actually I messed up that last post. I guess I was scared and then relieved when you responded. I'm sorry @Former-Member. When do you see the nurse/doctor again for injury b even if just for reassurance? I think that it takes so much time to recover from this. Don't put pressure on yourself. Maybe this is a good time to find that strength to say I have no more room physically and emotionally for this. There is too much at stake. You really seem to want to get over it and I believe you can. Just see this as a hiccup in your thought process, there's nothing wrong with you. And society can still take a running jump💐💜

[mrkotter]

Glad you got back in touch. Stay safe and have a nice sleep.

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Former-Member

Sorry to hear you are doing it tough. 

There must be a way to be successful on YOUR terms. We all need bread on the table and a roof over our heads ... but do we actually need all the rest?

I just came back from the launch of a book by Donna Jackson "Art and Social Change: Dust a case study".  Its a about Asbestos and theatre.  Robyn Archer opened it.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Former-Member,

Sorry to hear you were having a tough time today and hopefully now you have taken your meds and are having a much needed sleep.

Recovery can be a long road with many ups and downs. I agree with other members who talk about redefining what it means to have success in one's life. It can mean different things to each person. 

Right now, use self care and your support people to get through each day until you feel a bit stronger. Then maybe talk to your psychiatrist or counsellor about what does feeling better mean for you. What are the small steps towards this goal?

Self harming behaviour has a purpose and for some people, it's the main way they cope and find some relief from the emotional pain. However it can put your life at risk. So it's important to find other less risky ways to find relief.

 I'll email you some helpline numbers to call if you are feeling worse. Hope you feel a bit better when you read this tomorrow.

Take care,

Frog