Not Good Enough

[Till23]

Hopefully your bad weeks are behind you @Appleblossom 

I am glad you are more connected and feeling more appreciated.

I wish I could trust that I was good enough

[Appleblossom]

@Till23 I bet you will perform well enough for your team and your self. Just focus on the job and take in the sights in your down times. 

I allowed myself to be very upset. Maybe I needed to learn somethings. I have some formal support and build up informal networks in last couple years. Keeping my heart and head aligned and open and learning who are the best people to keep company with and allow us to thrive.

[tyme]

Hey @Till23 ,

Thank you for your post. I can see how much you care.

Unfortunately, no matter how hard we try, offence happens. People may take it differently, misunderstand the post or, they may be triggered by the content. I hear you are concerned.

And example of this is that in the past, if people typed a sentence and added a full stop (.), to me, that was triggering. Yet I couldn't expect people to know that. 

I hear you 'feel' deeply and you are highly passionate, so I'd encourage you to practice some self-care.

For me, when I first started peer work, it was hard to separate myself from what was happening. But over time, I was able to set some boundaries so that I could protect myself and not respond to people when I was emotional.

Hope you have a great day. Please know we are here to support you.

[Till23]

@tyme you seem to be here very early, or maybe I haven’t really paid attention before to what time PSWs are here.

Anyhow thank you for your response. I know that people can take things differently to how you intended it, but this was a bit more of me trying to create or preserve my own space. So it is a bit different anyhow I think it has worked out ok, because I think the other person creating their own thread has helped them as well.

I read some things on here and think wow the mods are only trying to keep it good for everyone and they are having to deal with negative responses. I think of how the mods might feel about it. I know it’s hard when people are upset and posting though to keep it neutral.

Hope you are well. You’ve been here there and everywhere lately it seems. 

[Shaz51]

Very true @tyme about what you said and I have had @Jynx jump in to help the situation 

But then I could not sleep because of what I said 

@Till23 , @tyme is earlier today xx

I see there were no Psw's on Thursday?

It was nice supporting members with @Tolly and @PrincessLettuce xx

It was funny 😁 don't know if ii was following tolly or tolly was following me 

[tyme]

Yeah @Shaz51 , it happens to all of us. The more connected we feel, the more we can get hurt. BUt if we want to feel the connection that the forums provides, we also have to be ready for upset that may come. Setting boundaries is so important.

I also feel a chance to reflect is helpful. It can teach us how to move forward next time when you find yourself in a similar situation. 

@Till23 

All PSWs were at a conference. I was on the forums in the back ground, but our wonderful consellors were holding the fort 🙂

[NightFury]

Just wanted to pop on and say @Till23 safe travels! I hope you have an amazing time away. 

[Till23]

Thank you @NightFury I hope things improve for you. You've certainly made a lot of headway already and I hope that continues. All the best

[AuntGlow]

I wanted to pop by and say safe travels as well!! I hope you have the most wonderful time; you should be so proud of yourself. We will all be thinking of you, and we will all be here if you need us, okay? 

I am very much looking forward to your reflections of your explorations. @Till23 💛✨

[Till23]

Thank you very much @AuntGlow. I certainly wasn't expecting anybody to remember, especially the PSWs who are so busy chatting with many people at once. So if you're not on the forums you not really in people's minds. So thank you so much, it actual means a lot to me that you remembered.

It's been a bit of a struggle getting ready, but I hope I will be ok. Just hoping I haven't forgotten anything important! My house will be a bit of a mess when I leave, as I haven't got through as much ironing etc as I wanted. I have thought of pulling out and not going a couple of times lately as I ahve been feeling quite down and on edge of tears.

Today I have been doing some tech stuff in preparation, which always seems to be ridiculously time consuming. It has made my anxiety flare up.

I am watching Four Corners on ABC tonight (which was about MH care in NSW) and it's been a difficult viewing. I saw a friend on the program, I did not know they would be on it. It's was a bit demoralising watching it, maybe I shouldn't ahve watched just before I leave. Right now I don't feel as though I can't go I feel down and also so stupid and silly. 

I really hope I can move this depressive mood. I thought I may have started to feel a bit excited by now. Thank you and bye