Hello Exhausted2,

I’m new as well on this platform and came across your post when I pressed the link to this page accidentally. I thought I was in a tricky position at the moment, but seeing your post makes me realise there are others going through hard journeys as well.

I think it’s good for you to know you have a safe place like this to express yourself and to process your feelings into words. I find so often, when I do what you have done here, and organise everything into a written form, it starts to feel like I’m not loosing control. So hopefully you’ve had that experience when you let it all out earlier . 

Now it’s time for you to realise that there are other people who are not necessarily going through your journey, but nevertheless find worth in you. You’re being so much more resilient than you realise, to have come this far already. I admired your strength and perseverance when I read about what you’re going through.

 I’m not a counsellor or psychologist. I’m here because I am seeking help as well, but you need to keep on reaching out. 
If I was to say anything I would recommend you see your doctor, if you trust them enough, and set up a mental health plan for yourself. You need to be given as much assistance as you can get. Don’t be afraid to admit that you need it. It took me years to make that step and now I wonder why I didn’t act sooner.

Your thoughts and values are important. You have the right to be who you are and I really hope, after coming to this website, that you will realise you are not alone. That can be the worst voice hear, when inside your head you’re told that nobody wants to listen to you.

Your words spoke to me and I’m now going to be praying for you and the life you have ahead of you. There will be rewards for your commitment to your family. Let yourself believe you can bring yourself out of any darkness and into the light. 

Have a listen to the song by Danny Gokey called “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again’. I listen to it so often when I need a reminder of how I can take control of dealing with challenges.

 I hope you find what you need on this website. Thank you for sharing your story.