Hi @BPDlearner1, 

Welcome to the community!

It's totally understandable that a BPD diagnosis can bring about mixed feelings. It's great that you've been able to identify how this new diagnosis has made you feel and that you've taken the step of reaching out for support at this time. 

I see that you have mentioned DBT - many people, myself included, have found DBT helpful in managing their BPD, so I hope it can prove useful for you too. 

In terms of first steps or resources when you're at the start of your journey, I've got a couple of suggestions from personal experience, but, as always, you are the expert on what might be a good fit for yourself. 

- I've seen 'The Borderline Personality Disorder Workbook' by Daniel J. Fox recommended, and I got a copy for myself but am not far enough into yet to give a definitive review. You can preview about 50 pages of it online if you did want to check it out to see if you might be interested in it. 

- One of the first resources I found useful was instagram pages dedicated to BPD. One that I think is particularly informative is catherinelcsw, but there are also others like holistic.bpd.cptsd.recovery, bpdcantbreakme, and wrongsideoftheborderline that post interesting content. 

- Hearing about other people's experiences of BPD was beneficial for me, and I found these through blogs, YouTube videos, and online communities. Just be conscious that you are seeking out content created by/with those with lived experience (as some of what is out there comes from those who don't have a proper understanding of BPD and can present quite a skewed perspective), and be mindful of anything that might trigger you. 

It's okay to feel nervous about what lies ahead, and I hope that some of the resources and communities out there help you to feel supported, educated, and reassured on your journey 🙂