they will call me tomorrow, they said

I'm meant to take medication to sleep tonight

might, might not, IDK

They didn't want me to go to the ED, kept talking about me needing long term support

I can't get any!!!

No one will see me, after my horrible experience with a trauma service. I am going round in circles. I felt the CATT team responder didn't care about me. 
I am not worth anything, I knew it, but not really, in a way. I felt disappointed when people pushed their views on me, told me what had helped them was just what I needed, without takign the time to really know me and care what I needed.

I was pushed into a poor program for recovery, it ended badly, and since then i've been in crises most days.