@AuntGlow I've found her on YouTube so I'll have a look when I have a spare moment today. Thank you for sharing.

I'm.not sure where I was going with the Needoh analogy, my thoughts were pretty scattered last night. But I do like it. The more your squish, the softer it gets and the more it helps you to regulate. Yes, even if I wasn't implying that last night...I am now. Ahaha. 

I had a hot Milo, and was sitting in front of the wood heater and I observed that I was rocking back and forth. I tried not to judge myself and just let it happen.

I was fighting it all last night. I was teetering between wanting to retreat, and give up and feeling so very angry inside. I had my niece to look after and I was a little crabby with her. I was just trying not to let the ball drop. 

I hold it together through work, push it down even when I feel overstimulated and dysregulated, I picked up the rug rat from day care and when she went home...it only took a few minutes before I dropped the mask, let myself relax a little and just feel the exhaustion and the day and bang! Dysregulation. It's like a flood sometimes. I think my next appointment with my counsellor, we're working on management strategies. 

We have a late staff meeting this afternoon and I have to pick the rug rat up again tonight, so I'll pop in and out until the point where she goes home. But I'll be here. We can brain storm some ideas tonight.