Isolated, alone and lonely.

[tyme]

@MotherDuck , please check your inbox for an email.

[Semly]

Hi @MotherDuck 

I hope you pop in in the morning. I’ve just read your posts and am thinking of you. Getting to here and where you are has taken so much strength and courage and I feel privileged to be able to hear your story. I am so sorry to hear how alone you have felt with your mum and twin far away, and disconnected from anyone close by. Disconnection hurts.
I wish you well, and would love to hear about your nephew, or

anything at all you might be up

for chatting about in the morning.

I know @tyme and @AuntGlow have reached out with resources. 
You matter. I hope you can make a hot drink, read this, and say hello tomorrow.

[MotherDuck]

Morning and hello @AuntGlow , @tyme , @Semly 

I'm here and I'm so very sorry to have you worried. I'm drinking a hot coffee this morning as I read this. I have my first one on one councelling session this morning - I just had to get out of bed and shower for my 9am but I'm everything feels really hard. 

My apt is 9-10 and then I have to figure out activities to do to keep my mind at bay - I have no work today and usually when I go in for 5-6 hours it's a holiday for my head, I'm so focused on the physical work I do that it's a reprieve but when I have days off, they are the hardest as it's just me at home. I am a coparent effective 8 weeks ago, to this cute little fluff ball named Max.... I know he needs to be cared for (walked, fed etc), and I'm trying really really hard to be there for him. I might take him for a big walk after my apt. 

Having you all here is making me feel just maybe a little less lonely, I appreciate you all

Mel 

[Semly]

Good morning @MotherDuck,

I m so glad to hear from you this morning. I, too have been struggling- but I guess a silver lining is that, becuase I’m struggling, I was wandering through the forums last night and  saw your post.

You’re probably at or nearly beginning your counselling session now. 
I hope it goes really well.

Walking with Max sounds like a really goood plan. Maybe you could take a pic of something pretty it interesting on your walk and share it here?

I loved hearing about you morning coffee - such a sensory thing to share when we’re all just typed words in this space.

Thanks for your company. 

[Shaz51]

helllo @MotherDuck 

thinking of you this morning xx

love to see a photo of max if you like to share 

Hello @Semly , you are awesome my friend 

what coffee do you like ?

[MotherDuck]

 I've never really thought to ever jump on here for support, I'm so glad I did. Even just sharing this photo of Max it's really making me feel like there is someone that cares. 

I've just made myself a nice hot coffee again and will take this one for a walk shortly. 

[Tolly]

@MotherDuck @Semly Max is so adorable -enjoy your coffee and walk with Max

[Shaz51]

Ohh love the photo of Max @MotherDuck 

Sitting with you having a coffee ☕️ and hoping you are OK xx 

@Tolly 

[MotherDuck]

Thanks @Shaz51 @Tolly, he is a pretty cool dude . I'm not long awake, trouble sleeping. I'm trying really hard not to skin pick/self harm this morning, I'm going to make a coffee and hope someone is on here maybe we can talk about something else. I don't know, I'm terrible at this 

[Shaz51]

Hugs @MotherDuck 

Have you got much on today 

@Semly , @Appleblossom , @Oaktree