Hospital or not??

[BlueBay]

Stupid doctor.  I had to see a different doctor today as my regular one is away for a month on holidays.

I said to him my moods are bad, my depression is terrible and he suggested - take evening primrose oil tablets and take B6.  

So I am waiting to hear back from my psych and see what he says.

Anyway, I did the outpatient program today and the relaxation session was so good I fell asleep.  The other group program was a bit intense.  After lunch I had a choice of music therapy or art therapy.  I decided to give art therapy a go.  But a few minutes before it started i got the panics.  I was so anxious I started to cry and walked out.  I then saw the music therapist and told her what had happened.  I went back in the art room and told the teacher that I am so anxious and wasn't going to do the group.  I told her that i was scared that a lot of my emotions would 'open up' while doing art therapy.  

I told her that i will try to do it next week.  Feeling very down and disappointed that i didn't even try the art therapy,

[Faith-and-Hope]

Remember, baby steps @BlueBay ....

It sounds like it was enough for you today to just walk into a d out of the art room a course of times. That is actually a start !!

Don't be down on yourself. Just set the bar a little bit lower, and try agsin. You can move it back up whenever you feel ready to, not before. You have time. Take things slowly. It's okay.

💗🌷💗

[BlueBay]

@Faith-and-Hope I didn't see it like that.  Yeah at least I walked into the art room and spoke to the teacher.

Now that she knows how anxious I am she said she will prepare for me for when I go in.

Yes, baby steps.  Must keep that in mind.  

How are you and how is your daughter's birthday going? xxxooo

[Faith-and-Hope]

D3 has had a good day today @BlueBay. Her older sister has helped make that happen for her, and D3 planned her day to only do things she liked. She has an overdue art project, but her art reacher is difficult, so she said she had a speech and drama thing on today and couldn't go into the art rooms till tomorrow. Her s & s teacher is lovely. So proud of her being pro-active to manage her feelings like that.

Have a lovely evening @BlueBay.

Hugs ❤