Thanks
@Appleblossom &
@Faith-and-Hope, for acknowledging my wonderful news about my son. It's been so hard. Have something to look forward to with his grad,
he's given me notice not to get upset or anything, think he's a bit anxious his dad & i might cause a scene (childhood echos of family court battles & dvo dramas i suspect), so i hope, please pray i have enough strength to still stand proud, by myself. With the x & his new woman propping each other up, and his fiance's big family lined up together, watching my son on the stage. Oh boy, scary thoughts, trying to get him to let me bring a friend. The bpd pain of being left out, alone, not belonging, not wanted, not loved and my baby girl not there, Oh dear, crying just thinking about it. Best just focus on the makeover - go see the hairdresser for a plan, lose some weight, window shop for outfits... Thats CBT for ya, feel better again.
