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15-04-2017 09:21 PM
15-04-2017 09:21 PM
Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
Ive struggled with mental illness all my life. Ill be 40 next week and in the last 4 years have been under the care of a psychiatrist and psychiatric nurse trialling medications and hoping they'll work.
In the last 6 months Ive had my diagnosis changed from anxiety/depression to a mood disorder. Bipolar. But no specifics on 1 or 2. I dont get psychosis but i definitely get the mania. We've also talked about borderline being an issue on top of anxiety.
Problem is. Ive seen things in the past. They look like demons. They sound like demons. But not in the biblical sense. Just how i can describe them. I hear one voice over and over in my head. I call it the "demon" it tells me im shit. Im fat. Im ugly. Im a loser. Noone loves me. It tells me the guy im with doesnt want me. It tells me so much. Even to harm myself. I was put on anti psychotics again to try quieten them but all they do is make me hungry and fatter and more depressed.
Does anyone else have voices or this inner critic voice? How do you cope?
Because it's making me seriously want to die. I hate myself so much because of it. I just want some peace and quiet.
Thanks
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15-04-2017 10:25 PM
15-04-2017 10:25 PM
Re: Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
Hi @Bellaswan
I'm not sure i've met you, but hi!
I dont have any answers for this but sounds like it worries you a bit. Have you talked with your care team about it?
There are many people on the forums who've talked about experiences like this but its a bit quiet being Easter 🙂
hope you're doing ok
lj
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15-04-2017 10:43 PM
15-04-2017 10:43 PM
Re: Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
I am bipolar and i hear things they scare me and sometimes are mean but when i am manic they can be nice. i understand the issues with antipsychotics they dont help me either. i just try to ignore it and i always have something around like tv on or listening to music so i cant hear them if they happen. it is hard though and i am sorry you are dealing with this but you are not alone.
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17-04-2017 04:05 PM
17-04-2017 04:05 PM
Re: Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
I've only posted a couple times. I really should use this forum more because I need support from people like me. Its hard for other people without mental illness to understand.
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17-04-2017 04:09 PM
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Re: Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
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18-04-2017 09:45 PM
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Re: Bipolar and voices? Anyone?
Hi @Bellaswan I live with schizoaffective disorder which is like having schizophrenia and bipolar in one disorder. I live with voices almost every day. They sometimes can be difficult to live with and are nearly always derogatory in nature. I manage them with a combination of medications, meditation (usually mindfulness practices), cognitive behavioural therapy with a good psychologist, listening to music I enjoy and distraction techniques. Some of these distractions work better than others at differing times. For example, I try to make my voices make an appointment with me and I call it soapbox hour. During this hour, my voices have free reign and I will also communicate back to them. After that hour is up, I go back to distraction and the management strategies I mentioned above.
Have you voiced your concern about weight gain with your psychiatrist at all? There are some medications which have reportedly had minimal weight gain in consumers. I'm on one of these at the moment and while the damage has already been done (I am obese), I haven't gained anymore weight since.
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21-04-2017 12:44 PM
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22-04-2017 09:28 AM
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