I can’t cope

[Jynx]

I wish you a very restful sleep @Captain24 💜

[Shaz51]

Hope you have a good sleep @Captain24 

Hello @Jynx 🙂

[Captain24]

I’m remembering stuff that I long ago buried. I don’t know why? I’m feeling what happened. I did say no. 

[Jynx]

Hello lovely @Shaz51 😁 

And also goodnight! I'm off soon. Hope you have a splendid weekend hun 💜

@Captain24 deep breaths hun. Maybe do some stretching/grounding - i.e. present-focused movement to keep you in the now, and move the energy through your body with some slow movements? 

You can tag in next mod if you need someone to stay with you hun, I am sending you a big pile of cuddles before I go 🤗💜

[Shaz51]

Goodnight @Jynx and your 2 furbabies 😍

Hello @Captain24 xx

[Captain24]

All I have done this morning is sleep. It’s becoming a really bad habit. Al least I can do it tomorrow. I’ll be working. I’m glad I did everything yesterday as I couldn’t have done it today. 

I had to force myself to go and buy Pix a little bed for mums house. Just less that she has to take in her own.

My uncle fell through a glass door last night and has done his Achilles tendon. I was second on the list to take home over to the bigger hospital but I couldn’t due to Pix and her needing me to be at home since she is locked in a pen. I feel really bad about it. They did get another cousin to do it though. 

Im just not helpful to anyone at all. I’m scared that they will all turn their back on me because all I do is let everyone down. It shows how much of a failure I am. Maybe the should turn their back as I’m not worthy to be part of the extend family. I’m a horrible self centred bitch. 

[Captain24]

Anyone around for a chat? I need distracting from the horrible, self-centred, bitch of a person that I am. 

[fluffylight]

Hey @Captain24

How are you doing?

You recognised that it wasn't a good time to be taking your uncle to the hospital.

You are not those things that you shared. You are caring person and I have seen that through being caring for Pix and other forum members.

I am holding so much space for you. Please take lots of care of yourself you really deserve it.

fluffylight x

[Captain24]

I really do t think I do. I don’t think I deserve anything @fluffylight 

How are you? 

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

Im not sure if you are around and I’m not being stalkerish just wondering how you back is going?